Let's start with the summer of 2008. I was going from 6th to 7th grade. I was so excited to finally get a locker and be considered a "big kid" and all that jazz. I would be getting a locker for the first time because I went to a Christian school and they did that there. Anyway, I come to find out in early July that I would be changing school. I got a first class ticket to public school. I was actually kind of excited to be leaving because let's just say the people in my class at school weren't my favorite people in the world. To be honest, I didn't like them, at all. Now, at that age I would say that I was incredibly outgoing. So, I wasn't too worried, but let me tell you. I should've been. My first day of 7th grade just might have been the worst day of my life. The most important thing I learned that day is that no matter how many people are around you, you can still feel like the loneliest person in the world. You might not think that changing from private school to public school is that big of a deal, but trust me, it is. It might not have been so much the school itself, or just the fact that I had been going to my private school since I was five and the people at that school were the only people I've ever known. Well, I walked in to school and the only people I talked to all day were my teachers. Have you ever gone an entire day at school not talking? Not because you didn't want to talk, but because no one even noticed you were alive? That was me. The new kid that no one even noticed. I went a good 4 months not having any friends at school. Absolutely none. The funny thing was on the second day of school I actually talked to someone, but they decided to move the second week of school. Who does that? So the only person I even remotely communicated with was taken from me leaving me to live probably the loneliest, worst 4 months of my life. You might be thinking that I'm over exaggerating, but I went home pretty much every day and cried. Even going back to my old school didn't help because I didn't feel included there either. They had moved on with their lives forgetting all about me. So, I was the kid who didn't fit in anywhere. By January I had started to hang out with my brother and his best friend from church. Soon enough those were the only people I would hang out with. It was always my brother, his two friends, my best friend, and me. We were nearly inseparable. We hung out pretty much every day of the week. Soon enough one of my best friends started dating my brother's best friend and things got even better. Even things at school started to get better. I made a couple of friends and started talking to people more. By this time it was around May of 2009. Life was beginning to look up.
Fast forward to August 2009. The summer was amazing, but things were starting to become rocky between my friend and her boyfriend. Eventually they broke up and things started to happen from there. I didn't hang out with them much anymore. Plus my best friend was a year ahead of me, meaning she moved on to high school while I was stuck with people who I really didn't like in middle school. Needless to say my life at church started to suck, but my school life was beginning to flourish. So many people I didn't even think knew I existed started to talk to me. I actually enjoyed going to school for the first time in a couple of years. I would go to school and have the time of my life and suffer through Sundays praying for them to end as quickly as possible. I had so many friends at school nothing else seemed to matter. I had something to do nearly every weekend. It was a total blast. Sports were amazing, friends were amazing, family was amazing. Everything was perfect. Everything except Sundays, of course. Of course things weren't always perfect. I lost a couple of friends and went through a good number of heart breaks by the same guy, but overall it was a fantastic year.
Moving on to the summer of 2010. The absolute best time of my life. I've never had more fun in my life. I went on vacation with my best friend in the entire world, I hung out with my friends every day, life was as good as it's ever going to get, but of course, summer always has to end. And when summer comes to an end so does everything that happened in it. They become distant memories. And new things began, including...
My first day of high school. People say that high school is such a big thing. Everything is going to change, blah, blah, blah. And to a certain extent, they're right. I had to leave a lot of my good friends behind that went to a different school. And everything, in fact, did change. With my starting high school, my brother was starting college. That is probably the biggest change I've had to encounter in my life, and definitely the hardest. My brother was my best friend, and without him around I felt so alone. Again. I again cried a numerous amount of nights. Life was just so different. With that change at home, came the obvious change at school. The work load was definitely not as light as it is in middle school, and trust me, no matter what you do, you're going to lose friends your freshman year of high school. You meet new people and so do your old friends. You change a lot, and so do your old friends. It's a whole new environment and different people have different ways of handling it. Unfortunately for me, the friends I ended up losing were my best ones. School again became torture. I felt rejected and unwanted, but as for church, I'd been having more fun than ever. I was with my friends again, and I was finally able to enjoy myself. As the new year approached, I decided I wasn't going to give myself a reason to be unhappy.
So, here we are. January of 2011. And here's where I stand. My life at church is amazing. I have amazing friends there and I'm learning more about God than I have in my entire life. School is started to look up. I'm started to make new friends and becoming closer with old ones. I'm talking to my friends that went to different schools, my grades are close to perfect, and my sports couldn't be any better. I'm genuinely content.
Another thing I'm happy about right now is the fact that it's snowing and I'm not going to have school tomorrow. <3
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